3 months and getting big!!!

Today is the day that Kirk has been waiting for since Aiden was born and it finally came. Aiden is able to start wearing is Mariner clothes. I had just gotten Aiden out of the bath, which he loves. He kicks and splashes and he even talks while he is in there. He is going to be three months old on thursday and he is getting so big. He has started to talk more and more. When we are laying on the bed at 7:00 a.m. after he eats, he gets a big smile on his face and startes talking to me, that's when I know he is going to be up for at least a few hours. I can't help but to smile back. he is doing alot better at night, he sleeps any where from 3-5 hours sometimes, but most of the time it's three hours. But back to the M's, I know Kirk is going to be so happy, after i took the pictures I wrote him an email because i wanted him to be the first to see them, I didn't think it would be fair for other people to see them befor he did. I know Kirk wishes he can be the one who takes Aiden to his first Mariners game, but we will definetly take lots of pictures. Aiden looks so cute in his clothes.

GALAXY!!!

Last week it was our friend jork's birthday, it was the 17th. We went to an indoor water park called Galaxy and it's in Erding, which is up by Munchen. Well the last time we went I was still pregnant, so i couldn't go on any slides, drink or go in the sauna, but I still had fun. Well this time around i was able to go on the slides and drink. My favorite slide i think was a tie between the tube slide that pushed you up or the white river one, we also went on the black mamba, which was pretty fun because it had flashing lights and played music. This slide also had a drop off, which you don;t expect, well at least i didn't. Lidia and I went into the sauna and sat in it for five mins. then a lady came around and handed out aloe vera salt and you rub it on your skin and sit in the sauna for another five mins. My skin felt sooo soft and fresh, then we went back into the pool and had a pina colada. After that Kirk and I went on some more slides, the last slide i went down was the white river one. It was a blast we went down on our belly's and face down, we were slamming eachother into the walls of the slide. But here is the kicker, my boobs haven't gone back to their original form, you who have breast fred will know what i am talking about. At the bottom of the slide i stood up waiting for kirk i was laughing and having a good time. Kirk looked at me and started laughing because there was my boob exposed for all the little kids to see, i was so embarassed i just wanted to go and have another drink and hide, which i did. All in all it was a pretty fun day, one of the last fun days before Kirk deployed.

Saying Goodbye!!!

Monday Feb. 22nd I said goodbye to the love of my life. I think that had to be one of the hardest days of my life. SO there are two days back to back that I will never forget, yesterday Feb. 23rd is my sister's birthday, it has always been her special day. But three years ago she had to begin to share that day, it is now the anniversy of my grandma's death that is always going to be a day i remember for the rest of my life, because I was extremely close with my grandma,when I was little I would go to her house every day while my mom was at work, and my cousin Kyle and I would sit on the couch and watch movies and cartoons all day, or we would throw rocks at the kids walking home from school. But anyways to get back on subject. There will always be a new deployment day, and I don't think it will ever get any easier, because at the end of the day, i'm alone with Aiden, at least we have eachother and Buster when daddy is away. Aiden will almost be a year when Kirk get's home, how do you ever eplain to your child, who that strange man is that they haven't seen in almost a year. I know it will get easier when Aiden get's older because he will have time before daddy leaves again to bond, he was only almost three months this time, the only thing i can do, is show him pictures and have Kirk talk to him so Aiden knows his voice and won't be to shocked the next time he sees his daddy. Now with Buster, he will always know who kirk is, those two have a very special bond. Buster knows that he is gone, i don't think i have ever seen that dog so sad, but alls i can do is love him and cuddle that dog. For me it's hard. I'm just trying to stay busy, we haven't even been married a year yet, and we will spend it with me in germany and him in Iraq. But at least one thing is true, we love eachother more than ever. Ya I have cried and i know i will for a while. The love of my life is in another country and i don't know when i will see him again, but it helps to hear his voice.

Decisions!!!

I have been breast feeding for almost 7 weeks, Aiden and I were getting along just fine until last weekend. He started eating only for maybe 5-10 mins at a time, so lucky me he was waking up every hour. So i started thinking about the pros and cons of breast feeding. I know Aiden loves the boob, no question about that one, it's better for him to breast feed, it's cheap and you don't have to find a place to heat up water when you travel. So breast feeding is convenit. But like i said waking up every hour, with me getting no sleep, i started thinking. My boobs got really BIG when i got pregnant, but after i had Aiden they just blew up, i'm talking bigger than his head. So I have had the worst time finding a nursing bra, the one i ordered is too small and it doesn't fit right. I thought well if i quit breast feeding I could get a regular bra. Kirk and I finally talked about what I should do, we decided that i should go to bottle feeding him, that's when leaking took on a whole new meaning. I started giving Aiden Formula mixed with a little of my breast milk because at first he did not like the formula he would drink an ounce and after I would burp him he started making faces then it lead to screaming. I think this decsion we came to as parents is the best not only for me but Aiden because we know that he is getting enough to eat and stayes asleep for 2-4 hours sometimes and plus now his daddy will be able to wake up with him and feed him, now that i'm not going to breast feed after this week.

New Years eve in Austria

New years eve we decided to go to Ausstria, our friends York and Lidia were already there. Went to St. wolfgang where there was a christmas market, one of the few that were still up. We started very early in the morning, and of course everyone feel asleep on the way up and left kirk to drive, poor guy. Well we got to the place where the market was and we were walking there, Buster spotted a swan on started barking, he wanted to get the swan, oh ya and he got in the cold water. I think that was the funniest thing that happened that day. Us girls decided we wanted to go on a horse carage ride around the town we were in. Well we got back and all I see is york pushing the stroller like a maniac. So i jump down from the sleigh and i see Kirk carrying Aiden, which was a huge releaf, i thought i was gonna have to kick some ass. When we got back we went into a little cafe so i can feed Aiden and we all got something to drink. The hot chocolate there is awsome. Then we finished going through the market, my momand i went into the soap store and bought some soap, which smelt so good. We had some berry punch, which had some alcohol in it. After we left St. Wolfgang we went to this pound that had a trail around and we walked. York said it was a 45 min. walk with no hills. It turned out to be an hour and a half walk with all up hill the last part. The pound was frozen and york and martin were throwing rocks out on it and buster would chace after them, he was so wet from the walk, i think he was almost frozen himself. On our way home kirk was getting tired so the last half hour i drove we got home around 10:00 p.m. and i had my first drink in nine months. In germany New years is a big thing and it is there time to let off fire works, they were going off the whole night, but once it hit midnight, the fireworks were going off like crazy and the church bells were going off as well, it was pretty awsome.

Christmas time

We had some family over for christmas and New years. Kirk's Brother Dustin got here on chrismas eve and my mom and cousin got here on Christmas day. Kirk had to get up at like 5:30 in the morning to drive to Frankfurt and pick them up. We had a good time, we cooked a small dinner, well Dustin cooked the turkey because I had no clue how to, we also had mashed potatoes and gravy, stuffing, deviled eggs and Biscuits. I also made pumpkin pie's which didn't get ate until after christmas. After that we opened presents. The next couple of days we basicaly relaxed, I did take my mom and cousin down town Ansbach for a little bit on Saturday.

The next week we took a train to munich, so they could see some of the churches and go to one of the breweries, because they got addicted to the beer, they are probably have withdrawls from the beer and brauts. Well Aiden started to get hungry and let me tell you it is difficult to find a place to breast feed a baby, i don't think it would of been that big of deal if it wasn't so cold, I would of been able to do it outside, but it was FREEZING. They went in to a couple of churches and shops. We got to the beer place and it was so crowded it was imppossible to find a place to sit down, so they bought a couple of glasses and post cards and we left, to find a place to eat. After we ate we decided it was time to head back to the train. My cousin Jan found a church and went inside, well while we were inside Aiden started to srceam,he was hungry and it is impossible to try and calm him down, cuz when he's hungry he wants to eat right then and there, there is no pleasing him until he eats. We finally made it back to the train station, but we got on the wrong train, so we got off at one of the stops, Neu ulm and our friend York came and picked us all up.

We did attemp to take them to Rothenberg, but since it was a sunday everything was closed. But we did walk through the town so they could see a little bit of it. We found a nice little place to eat, so they could taste a real german meal before they left. We had fun, but my mom and kirk would start drinking at 9:00 in the morning, so when we went to Rothenberg my mom was drunk and she still wanted to get a beer to drink when we ate. They left on the seventh to go back home and kirk left on the fifth to go to WLC, so right now i'm pretty lonely, but I do have buster and my baby boy here with me to keep me busy.

Living in Rothenberg!!

It all started when Kirk came home from ramstein, I started leaking some fluids, but didn't think anything of it. Then it started to get worse as the week went on. So on Tuesday morning I called my mom back in washington and told her what was going on. She told me I needed to go get checked out. So im crying by then. I don't think i have ever been so scared in my life. Not for me but for my little boy. Well the doctor who was taking care of me told me that I would need to stay for a few days because they wanted to stop the leaking, so they hooked me up to some good magnesium. A couple days into it I had an allergic reaction so they stopped the magnesium, and the contrations started. By then the doctor had got the test results back and well I had some type of infection, so they put me on an antibiotic. So the few days they needed me turned into about three and a half weeks. By the end of the second week I was done with it all. So I convinced the doctor to induce me at the beginning of my 37th week, and well they did, and it worked. At 2:30 am my water broke. But I was only dialated to a 2. So they sent me back to bed, but I couldn't sleep, I was cramping a little. So at 8:00 am they sent me down stairs to the delivery room to be checked. They told me to go walk around for an hour to get my contractions going regular. It was only 20 mins and I was feeling a lot of pressure and my language turned into that of a trucker's. So we went back down stairs they checked me and I was a 9. Only one more centimeter to go, and it was fast, I guess from what Kirk said I only had to push four or five times and they laid little Aiden Roger Cole on my stomach.
Since Aiden was just about four weeks early still we had to stay in the hospital another week. He was jondice, so he had to have photo therapy and they wanted him to start gaining weight.Which I understood, but being in the hospital started wearing on me and Kirk. After three and a half weeks, we finally got to come home. That is an experince I will never forget, but in the end me and Aiden are both healthy, im losing the weight and he is gaining. Nothing is better then being a mommy, I love it.